Friday, November 20, 2009
I dream of the heavens
I dream the same dream that man has dreamed from his earliest memories. And as our minds take us deeper into science and understanding the impossible, we seek life on other worlds with the hope that our dreams might become possible.
On earth mankind is determined to destroy the home we've abused and neglected, we have ways to turn global destruction around, but man is too greedy to turn for self-mutilation. I feel it may be too late, that the Messiah will return and this earth will pass away inevitably. But if there is time, and if we keep dreaming, I believe there are other worlds for me to dream of and the faint hope of new places to call home
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Whirlwinding
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Shadows
Sunday, September 14, 2008
You Smile (Song)
You smile, she smiles, she looks, away
You blush, and think, of what, to say
You talk, she talks, you laugh, she flirts
You fall, so fast, so hard, it hurts
And all the time there’s only one thing on your mind
Could this be the one you waited all your life to find
Could it be true, could it be you
How will you know, when will it show
You smile
Your love, it grows, with each, new day
You have, the ring, what will, she say
You ask, you want, she says, she will
You breathe, and think, oh heart, be still
‘Cause all the time there’s only one thing on your mind
Could this be the one you waited all your life to find
Could it be true, could it be you
How will you know, when will it show
You smile
She’s sad, she hurts, you don’t, know why
You try, to help, you watch, her cry
She’s cold, she’s cross, she pulls, away
It hurts, inside, what you, can’t say
‘Cause all the time there’s only one thing on your mind
Could this be the one you waited all your life to find
Could it be true, could it be you
How will you know, when will it show
You smile
When Love Died
My First
Why does the darkness consume me always,
My heart aches with the pain of it,
Not the presence of evil,
But the scar it has left on my heart.
I was lost for so long,
I rejected the perfect love that He offered me,
Because I felt unworthy of it,
We are all unworthy,
But I felt it most of all.
Saint Paul’s words in my mouth,
“I am the greatest among sinners”,
Not because my sin is so great,
But because I love Jesus and I know better.
Because each sin is my rejection of Him,
Each evil done is a laugh in His face.
He suffered true pain,
To be tortured and killed on a cross,
To bear all of my sin and be separated from His father’s love.
I will never know that pain,
Except what I feel in my heart.
Pain for my betrayal,
Pain because I do not love Him the way I should,
Pain because I do not worship Him with my actions,
Because I do not speak to Him every day,
Because I ignore Him,
Because He loves me so much and wants to spend time with me.
What is my life without Him,
What, if I do not walk with Him every day,
What are these things I cling to,
Idols I place before Him.
These are not the desires of my heart,
So why do I feed them,
I want to desire nothing,
To have nothing,
To be nothing,
Only then will I see that I already have everything,
That I already am everything,
In His eyes.
“I pray that your life would be as wonderful as it was in God’s mind when He created you”.
I have to let go,
I have to give up,
I have to hit bottom,
Only after I die will I be resurrected,
“It is only when we lose everything, that we are free to do anything”
I want to love, and be loved,
I want to love everyone, everywhere.
Let there be no closed doors in my heart,
Especially not between me and my Jesus,
Let me love all those that He loves,
For He lives in all of those that He loves,
If I reject them, I reject Him,
If I love them, then His love can be given through me.
I want to be free, of all the burdens that tie me to the earth,
That I may take up the heaviest burden of all,
The cross that my Perfect Love died on,
That His blood could cover me,
And wash me clean,
Every day, for my sin is great,
It will not leave me soon,
But in time I think I can learn to let it die with me.
“Every night I died, and every night I was resurrected”
Born again from the ashes of my burning heart,
Let me be consumed by the fire,
Purified by the flame, by my pain.
Let me rise up like a mountain,
Not great in stature, but great in favor,
With God and His children,
Let me be carved out of wood, out of the tree He died on,
Let His strength be my own.
“This is my life, and its ending one minute at a time”
This is my life and its beginning one minute at a time.
“Have I been asleep, have I slept, have I been going to bed earlier and sleeping in later”
Yes, I have been dreaming of a life that has been waiting for me if only I will wake up,
And No. There is no sleep in my life, but even so,
Let me awake now, let me live now,
Put the world on my back, all of the souls that cry out for peace,
Let me carry them now,
As He carried me,
And thus will my anthem be,
“It is a far better thing I do now, than I have ever done before,
It is a far better rest I go to, than I have ever known”.
I will let go now,
I will love now,
I will live, now.
Hole in my Heart (Song)
I sing a simple song
About a heart that’s broken
You turned and walked away
So many things unspoken
And for so long I used to lie awake late at night
Wondering why I let you go without a fight
Right now I’m falling apart
You left a hole in my heart
Living without you
Was like walking in the rain
I wanna feel the sun
But all I feel is pain
‘Cause I never loved anyone the way that I loved you
And it kills me to know you didn’t feel the same way too
Right now I’m falling apart
You left a hole in my heart
Prayin for the day
When my heart will finally mend
I was broken up at first
Now I’m stronger in the end
But the heart ache and loneliness never go away
And it seems like I fall apart a little more every day
Right now I’m falling apart
You left a hole in my heart
Drivin late one night
This song just came to me
I found a peace within
And truth I could finally see
‘Cause in the middle of everything He took me by the hand
Said I’ve loved you forever with a love that has no end
Now I’m not falling apart
God filled that hole in my heart