Faith Again

Today, for a brief moment, I found Faith again. Its been a long time since I've felt God's presence and been happy about something. He totally blessed me for blessing others and it made me realize how much He's been blessing me lately. Stuff I don't think about, stuff that I take for granted. But for me, big breaks or small ones are all huge. I need all the help He can give me. And today I felt like I earned it. worked hard and went above and beyond and was rewarded for it, caught me off guard, cuz that doesn't happen to me often. I go above and beyond for a long time, till I get tired of it never making a difference, then I start slipping into the monotony of everyone elses low standard work ethics. But today gave me hope, and for the first time since I can remember, I was happy, for a bit, and life seemed ok...who knows what tomorrow will bring... chance of rain?